what if i just started again,
didn't explain or justify why i stopped
or what i've been doing.
i just show up,
continuing on as though we just chatted yesterday.
what about we pretend
that i was marooned on a deserted island
for the past 40 days,
collecting sea shells, sunburns and stories.
i remembered that this is for me
and i get to make the rules about this space,
what i share, what i don't, when i visit,
what it looks like.
remembering that there is no need for comparisons,
no concern necessary about how they do it differently than i do,
no self inflicted judgement about their comment count versus mine.
it isn't that big of a deal after all
and for that
i am grateful.
i am weary of everything becoming a big deal.
i want to tone life down for a while.
i just want to be.
and with that,
i am back.