stay

 

stay.

 

i see the word over and over in the comments.

some of you just simply write the word

stay.

  others pen me love notes and affirmations,

reminders, and gentle chastises. 

some of you i don't know by name,

yet you took the time to ask me to stay.

to thank me for writing.

 to show up for me.

-wow-

 all the words settle on my heart with the gentleness of a feather-

 

make my heart quicken and quiet.

can  that happen at the same time?

of course it can and it does.

there is an inhale and a deep exhale.

a softening rather than a hardening.

my shoulders relax.

that confirmation of what i needed to hear

 the gentle little push to continue being who i am

it  became forgotten briefly

 {again}

 in the roar and rush of a life unsettled.

a roar and a rush 

despite the constant practices of quieting my  being.

{this is hard work and needs to be faced with diligence}

of course i am going to quake and waver

when time and time again i awake to a  challenging day

and decide to root my feet and face it head on.

{today is day one}

 you do the same i know

and i am in awe

 of your bravery and forward marching, 

crawling, skipping, walking,

however you navigate dawn till dusk.

be it in words, in work, in quiet surrender, in prayer, in paint,

in tools and dust, in books, at desks, with pots and pans,

in ditches, in fields, with others, in solitude, in the company of the elderly or the little

or the ones in between, 

be it with dirt and seed or pen and paper.

your navigating, my navigating is beauty.

i am in awe of us all really

and i want to share my journey with you.

please continue to teach me how

by being who you are meant to be.

i will continue to.

thank you.

my appreciation for your love of me,

your belief in me,

your rooting for me 

means the world to me.

it really does.

xox