Thursday, November 15, 2012


My laptop is broken
I don't know how to blog from my phone
And add photos
And that changes the format of this space
And i feel broken too.

I need to go for a other iron infusion
And even though i know they are working
And my iron levels are improving
I do not want to go
I do not want another iv in my already 
Sore and tiny arm
The whole procedure makes me feel broken

I am taking a little class
And yesterday the assignment
Was to list everything i wanted to learn
Anything at all
But for 10 whole minutes
No stopping
You know, a free writing exercise. 
I lasted 4 minutes
And i felt broken. 
I can write long and fast but not 
For that exercise apparantly. 

I have a friend who is hurting
And another who is lonely
And one who is sick
And despite all the love i give
I can not fix them
And i too feel brokeas a result.

I intended just to check in
And tell you my laptop was broken
And the space here might be quiet
But i think perhaps
I needed to ask for grace
And gentleness
And patience
As i recognize that i am broken too.  


  1. It's okay to feel broken... sometimes that's all we can do. Express our feelings, accept them as part of who we are and move on to the next day. I feel broken because my body is engulfed in chronic pain from FM, Arthritus and multiple ailments. Every day is a struggle, but I move onward and count the blessings God has given me. Journaling helps so much and I am finding I need to make more time for it as frustration builds. Big hugs and blessings to you Tania.

    1. Thank you for reaching out and sending such love!