Broken

My laptop is broken

I don't know how to blog from my phone

And add photos

And that changes the format of this space

And i feel broken too.

Today 

I need to go for a other iron infusion

And even though i know they are working

And my iron levels are improving

I do not want to go

I do not want another iv in my already 

Sore and tiny arm

The whole procedure makes me feel broken

I am taking a little class

And yesterday the assignment

Was to list everything i wanted to learn

Anything at all

But for 10 whole minutes

No stopping

You know, a free writing exercise. 

I lasted 4 minutes

And i felt broken. 

I can write long and fast but not 

For that exercise apparantly. 

I have a friend who is hurting

And another who is lonely

And one who is sick

And despite all the love i give

I can not fix them

And i too feel brokeas a result.

I intended just to check in

And tell you my laptop was broken

And the space here might be quiet

But i think perhaps

I needed to ask for grace

And gentleness

And patience

As i recognize that i am broken too.