digging deep

sometime when i am weary,

like today,

i need to dig deep to remember where i am.

i need to pull on the reserves

that are deep within me to get through my day

even my moment.

this is one of those days.

it isn't suprising that i am weary today.

i have been blessed these past few weeks

with two adventures,

both with strong emotional connections

and my work is full of caring and loving

and my parenting is also full of caring and loving

so i am not concerned or upset that i am weary

i am just noticing it.

noticing that today my heart is tender

and i am extra sensitive

and i am quicker to sigh heavily.

i was told today by someone

who doesn't know me very well i guess

that

people only do daycare for the money.

that hurt.

alot.

i was also today today by someone who knows me very well

that

i am appreciated and loved.

that felt better.

maybe the weather has something to do with the weariness

but i don't think so.

i think i am just in need of some rest.

some soul rest and heart rest

and physical rest.

rest is good.