i always thought it was optimism...

there is a difference of opinion

in our house these days

between owen and i.

am i eternally optimistic

or just

really, really

forgetful?

i am absolutly convinced

often in my daily life

that

"this has never happened before"

or

"i have never felt this heartbroken"

or

"i can't believe "this" is happening!!

all with genuine

amazement and fresh emotional reaction.

i have always thought that

i am a very optimistic person

and therefore as soon as something

tricky or difficult or hard has occured

and been processed and we've all moved forward

i forget about most of the hurt and negativity

and life continues forward

full of goodness and light.

well,

owen has gently mentioned to me

that perhaps i am just really forgetful.

because apparantly

our newest challenges we are working through

right now

have happened before!

what?!

no!

but, yes, apparantly

there have been some tough teenage years in our house in the past

and we got through them together

and said teenager is now an adult

and still speaks to us and loves us and has an

 independent life.

huh?

apparantly i shed hot tears and anguished

and learned some new things

and we all stretched and grew together

and then i forgot.

i guess.

granted,

it is more complicated this time

but the question remains..

is it optimism or forgetfulness?

i think it's a little of both.

and so does he.