meeting myself on the mat

 

there is sweat

running down my back

and while that might seem like

way too much information

it is important

to me that i share it.

 

i am

meeting myself

anew

on the mat,

the elliptical machine

and through the footsteps that i am pounding

around the lakes and trails of my neighbourhood.

 

two motivations are taking me to the sweaty place.

a desire to get strong

and put my illness in the back of my life instead of the front

 

and

to renew my connection with nature and the absolutely beautiful place we live in.

 

and so,

i sweat.

and i get over my fear of doing hard physical activities

because i want to start doing them.

i want to strap on that backpack and return to where i once went.

i desire to hike the west coast trail again

before i am much older than i am now

and i want to

dig dirt and turn garden beds like a boss

in a few short months

 

i desire to daily remember that we live in a most splendid world

and by getting out of the house, the car, the coffee shop

i will be able to give thanks with more abundance and gratitude

that i already try to do.

 

to being sweaty!

 to becoming strong!

 to reveling in the greenness that surrounds me!