invisible..

i think blogging every day helps me

not feel invisible.

there needs to be strategies

in place

for me to feel connected

in a meaningful way to the people that are important to me

outside of my family

and being i work at home

that connection needs to be intentional.

so,

blogging is my way of feeling like i am having a good little

heart to heart each day with someone special.

the funny thing is i write for myself -

deliberatly not getting caught up in

punctuation and sentence structure.

i just tend to sit down,

choose a photo that

"speaks to me"

(because they do)

and type out a few honest, unedited thoughts.

as for you who are reading them,

i figure that the only reason you would read my blog

in the first place

would be becasue you care for me at some level

and therefore, i am succeeding in

staying connected.

of course,

i am also blessed with a few dear friends

who drop in unexpectedly

often for less than 10 minutes or so...

you are littele rays of sunlight in my day!

and get to see me at my best and worst

depending on the moment.

so yea,

that is why i am here every day,

usually just after lunch,

typing quickly and happily

reaching out to my little world

and reminding myself that

i am still here.

not invisible.

i suppose some of us would like to be invisible

and unseen

and i too often want to retreat

but for me

for my personality

that retreating and hiding

 is not helpful for extended periods of time.

i need

this.

for myself.

and that is okay.