pulling up the covers...

sometimes it is so easy to pull up the covers

so to speak.

to pretend that there isn't a small voice of concern

speaking to us

or there isn't a  behaviour that we really are uncomfortable with

or perhaps

there is our intuition

tugging at us quietly

requesting an audience.

sometimes

it is simpler,

it seems at least

to hide from from the truth

by being extra busy

or extra loud

or extra quiet.

sometimes

we think that the situation or concern or problem

will just go away on its own.

even though we have tried this strategy many many times

often with the same result,

we somehow trick ourselves into taking the

easier route.

avoiding the hard conversation or the  lifestyle change we may need to make

or the stretching and growing that will come

when we pull the covers off of ourselves and

truly see.

earlier this year

i was working really hard at being more authentic

with myself and those close to me.

it has not been a perfect process

and there are times when i

am

right back to where i used to be

but in some areas of my life

the cover pulling

was telling.

i learned so much about myself

and i can see the value

in really being authentic.

there is a freedom that begins to develop

and that frees up space for other growth and opportunites to flourish

it takes a whole lot of trust in myself though

and that is often where i stumble.

but i am also learning that it is okay to stumble

as long as i pick myself up, brush myself off,

 try again,

and not

 retreat

 under the blankets.