today.

today i feel

like there is too much to accomplish

and i am not very full of

patience and grace.

i feel like

i need to compulsively write

lists to keep myself from panicking

about all that i

need to be doing.

need to be doing?

really,

when one stops and thinks about it

there is very little that we actually

need.to.do.

there are lots of things

that help keep our live more orderly

and help us meet our goals and responsibilites

there are many many things

we want to do.

but when i start panicking

about simple joyful activites

like

ice.cream.parties

i know that there is something out of balance.

when my body starts

screaming for the very food that will make me sick

i know that i need to stop and breathe.

no more  running around in never ending circles -

no panicking about made up expectations

no more busy projects.

i just need to do what needs to be done

and trust that the rest will take care of itself.

it always does and always will.

today

is

one of those days where i need to be reminded

to stop.

 do what needs to be done.

 breathe.

 trust.

let go.

 enjoy.

today and tomorrow will take care of themselves.