a question or two.

happy sunday morning suzy!

here are the questions i am pondering right now:

why do we do things we don't have to do? especially if those choices are not benefiting us?

what keeps us from being brave enough to let go? to try something that promotes wellness?

why do we place so much of our identity in our work? in our busyness? in making others happy?

how do we get to the place of freedom in our lives? how do we make decisions that are healthy?

how do we shut off our past fears and patterns to make room for new opportunity?

so yea,

that's what I am wrestling with..

i need to make some decisions regarding my work and my health

and i need to make them super soon and i am feeling the squeeze between logic and emotion

i am hearing the past fears and patterns try to get the upper hand and in my tired, exhausted state

it is possible i am letting them win.

tea today with a wise friend who knows me inside and out

and hearing her responses to my situation

(if we can call it that)

 made me question

myself. (not in a negative, bad tania way), but in a familiar,

that is what i would say to anyone i cared about way

 so why am i not able to accept for myself that which i truly believe others deserve.

this photo of hannah is one of my favorites.

it speaks of freedom, carefree, happy, joyful moments...

i am seeking some of those right now

and some answers..

i wonder if i care about myself enough to make the right decisions

if i am brave enough?

i will keep you posted!