checking my balance...

.

when Suzy and i started this blog

alot of my personal focus was on finding a balance in my life

a balance between work and parenting

a balance between work and health

a balance between marriage and parenting

a balance between pretty much everything.

i did some good work

i dedicated my sunday afternoons to art and spending time with a dear friend

owen and i had date nights

the kids and i adjusted to me working at home and what that looks like

(it doesn't look pretty most days truth be told)

and i was learning to manage my health and come to terms with that.

and then something happened

and somehow,

like a stretched out elastic band

i fell out of balance

and snapped back into

extemes.

honestly,

when i am out of balance,

it can be pretty ugly.

i become a martyr

and slightly impatient

and i tend to make a big deal about everything

and

most annoyingly to my family

i start to repeat everything!

as if they can't hear me just because i am freaking out!

so,

i am checking my balance again- looking to see

not so much where i went wrong because there isn't much point

in looking backwards.

but i am trying to figure out how to re establish

some balance

especially in the area of

self- care...

that dreaded word that some of us hate,

some of us love

and some of us are coming to terms with as being life saving.

so-

ideas please?

remember the following:

i work alot so my evenings are short

i can't eat much of anything good so food is depressing

i am exhausted - so exercise is, well, tricky...

i am an introvert (this is new to me)

i sound like i am complaining

but i am not

just being realistic and honest...

waht do you do for self care?