storing up treasures

ten years ago,

which seems like just yesterday

but also

a life time ago

there was alot of turmoil going on in my life

and of course,

people had things to say

because it seems that we humans are sometimes

unable to be quiet in the midst of turmoil

so we add comments and advice and accusations

and words of wisdom or whatever else we

feel we should say to make

usually ourselves feel better

 but sometimes the person who is in the middle of the mess as well.

so ten years ago someone had some pretty judgemental things to say to me.

and i listened.

and i carried those words with me

every single day.

they were pretty deeply buried

but there non the less

and would pop up and rear their ugly head

at the strangest times- incovenient times

sad times, lonely times, times of change and courage needing times.

until 2 weekends ago.

when

at a simple chance meeting at a coffee shop

 someone who didn't say those burden heavy words

was able to say different words-

and all the judgement went away.

i actually felt lighter, freer, liberated and so much better!

since then, i am deliberately making an effort

to let go of what is not mine.

to let go of the words and expectations that are put on me-

let go of the guilt i carry

and i am making room

in my heart and life

to store up treasures that are going to be life affirming

rather than guilt producing.

the canning jars in the photo are from a booth at the Saturday Moss St. Market.

i was in blissful hippy land for a wonderful morning

the same day that i had the random coffee shop weight loss experience!

it was a very.very.good day!