connections...

i am husbandless this long weekend-

  owen is in Uculet salmon fishing

with a friend...

and i am noticing his absence.

in a good way.

i adore my husband and we are pretty much joined at the hip 

other than during work hours

and my life is very closly bound together

with my role as wife and mother.

hmmm...the word "role" worries me...

it doesn't sound like how i feel...

the joy, the privilidge, the responsibility, the choice

(hopefully you know what i mean)

and this leaves me with very little time or energy or

more honestly,

desire to broaden my connections.

it seems that each year, each month even

i become more of an introvert -

and i wonder if that is truly who i am

or if i am short changing myself by keeping to myself.

 i need to remember that while the internet can satisfy my need to immerse myself

in visual eye-candy, inspiring blogs and wonderful projects and ideas

those temporal experiences

are not anything more than that -

temporary.

building strong connections with a few choice people,

making my own experiences and art

taking time for tea

and actually being in the presence of another kindred spirit

is a connection that is lasting.

tonight i am spending time with an old friend

(20+ years...we haven't been in touch for forever)

and last night i sat on a bench

and connected with a friend and former co-worker

tomorrow i will be surrounded by my family again

and owen returns home.

the connecting i have done while he has been away

will allow me to have stories and experiences to share with him -

and he with me

and our connection will deepen

(this blog post is a little bit all over the place in what i am trying to say...as always, i just type from the heart and what gets put down, gets put down...i apologize to all of you who prefer a carefully crafted reading experience...it won't be found here)