to shake my house out and keep only that
which is useful and beautiful
to decorate trees in the forest
for you to stumble upon while walking
to become a crazy bird lady whose backyard is always singing
to splash my walls with gorgeous bright shiny colours that
sparkle in the darkest night
to sit at a table full of my nearest and dearest
sharing food and drink and conversations deep into the night
to go out and make such a difference in my little corner of the world
that it can't help but be just a little bit happier
to understand the depth of longsuffering love
so that i can extend it over and over again
to make cookies and candies and yummy nuts
package them up
all sweetly and give them away with abundance
to crawl into bed at night and hold owen so tightly that
we both feel strong and renewed in the morning.
to rest in the comfort and knowlege that
every little thing is going to be alright
and the big stuff will be too.
to be strong. stronger than i ever thought possible.
that is what i want today.