i believe there is a gift in transparency
in living a life where
we share our struggles as well as our victories
celebrate and document
the small mundane bits of daily life
along with the milestones.
i believe that everyone
is beautiful and worthy and valuable.
regardless of their strenghts, their weaknesses.
sometimes what an outsider may percieve to
be a weakness may actually be a strenght
in the making
or a strenght that we have deemed wonderful
may actually be hiding a weakness that is yet to be
grown up and strenghtened.
i know that there is a danger in being transparent
because we all come to each other
with preconceived ideas, with different values and beliefs.
some of us are quick to hide our fears with judgement
some of us are unable to deal with tough stuff
because of where we are at in our lives.
some of us believe that someone like me
might just be making too big of a deal about things.
i choose to live a transparent life
because for a long time i didn't.
i didn't consider my story to matter.
to be valuable
because i wasn't valuable.
i choose to share my story
through this blog,
through connections with individuals,
through my fb status
(how wierd is the fb connection hey..it can be so positive or so, so messy)
and art making
i choose vulnerability
because i believe it is the best way
to navigate this life and to live a life that is a blessing to others.
this is important to me.
i want to be a blessing to others
during the rich times of my life
the barren times.
it is also hard for me.
i worry about what people think about me.
i worry about what people say about me
i worry about what people assume about me.
but that needs to change.
i need to stop caring so much
and continue to be the person i am
i need to stop avoiding
people because i am
of their reactions towards me.
this blog is going to be very transparent.
i trust you with my heart.