today has looked like this...

i woke up with a deep feeling of sadness

so

i hid under the covers for a while

while owen chatted with his lovely sister

on the phone

 then i

staggered somewhat awake

downstairs and in an attempt

to jolly things up

put on our christmas playlist.

after a few songs and a cup of tea

it occured to me

that either we don't have the greatest

playlist or there are alot of sad christmas songs out there.

i turned the music off.

it wasn't helping much.

my mornings are particulary

lovely because i am greeted

by a very cheerful little mister

at my door

and when he drops his stuffed dog at my feet

and chats away about the newest thing

it is hard to feel sad for very long.

however,

sorrow can be persistant

and really,

it probably is a mix of sorrow

and just feeling sorry for myself

which i have no reason to be doing

but hey,

it happens.

so

my glum mood continued

my lovely friend stopped by and after

a rousing chat about the reality of life

and another cup of tea

i was feeling much better

because really,

how long can i afford to stay sad?

i miss alot when I am gloomy.

and i didn't want to miss out on anymore goodness from today.

i really don't!

and of course

 a constant stream

of hugs and kisses

from little people

is the greatest mood booster i know